Submitting fully and asking for more

I don't know...does anyone really want a blow by blow? I am going to write it anyway...if for nothing else than to save it for us. I really think...no, I KNOW tonight was a turning point for us.

Per my instructions; I went upstairs and and took off my clothes, except my panties. I put a vibrator, that he had left out on the bed, against my cunt....and I wait...and I waited...and I waited...I could feel myself getting irritated . I kept telling myself, 'submit, submit...HIS pleasure'.

When I finally heard his footfalls on the top of the landing, I felt my entire body melt. He came in and warmed his hands on the small space heater. With such attention to detail as this, is it any wonder I love him so. He ran his warmed hands across my body and man handled my big tits. Spanked my ass and squeezed my nipples.

He went into the bathroom and motioned me to follow. He pulled a tight tank over my head, he had modified the tank. He had cut out holes in the tank for my boobs to hang out and then cut small slits around the boob holes and threaded shoe laces through the slits. He had me lean over a chair, so my big tits hung down and then he pulled the laces tight, binding my tits tight. This is normally something I would bristle at. I would comply, but it would be immediately obvious that this is not something in my 'do me' script or desires. When it was clear that I was more open and ready to accept his direction for his pleasure, the power shift was clear.

G ordered me to lay back down on the bed and as he went to his stash of toys, his excitement was glaring. He went back and forth: he tortured my tits and nipples, with rough squeezes and pulling, twisting and biting, then put on nipple clamps...only to take them off and whip my tits and nipples with the crop, then put the clamps back on...only to take them off again moments later to pinch them and squeeze them again.

He choose one of the largest dildos we have...I swear to test me (because I have an aversion to dildos in my pussy) and made me fuck myself with it. I let go and did it and then when he ordered me to suck it, I did. He choose a large butt plug and lubed my ass up and inserted it. Working it in deeper and deeper. Now, I love our normal 'smooshy' plug, but this one was hard and unyielding and no doubt, more pain than pleasure. Not done, testing me...he grabbed my panties he had pulled off and put them over my head, inserting the crotch area across my mouth as a gag...then finally satisfied, he plunged his cock in my pussy. His thrusts were almost brutal and honestly, a bit painful. After fucking me until I was almost ready to say stop, he pulled out and pushed the panties aside and told me, "open your mouth, whore," and shoved his cock into my mouth and deep down my throat. He fucked my mouth until he came, his big hot load squirting in my mouth and spilling out across my face.

It was clear that I didn't cum and it was clear that was more than OK with him...and I can't believe I am saying this...was actually good for me.

After, I debated internally whether to say anything or not. It was clear we were headed in that direction already...but I decided, what the hell...say what is on your mind, clear communication is always a good thing...funny how after 19 years of marriage, you can still be nervous to say some things. I told him everything I just wrote about, not more than a few hours ago...he was ecstatic. We set a safeword and talked a bit about what helps me focus (more verbal), but I also said, I want to and am working on not needing that, since that doesn't come easily to him. Also, I asked for more direction in regards to hair, make up and preparations.

In the end, we are both on cloud nine right now. I am so happy and excited...and could it be better timing? I am so looking forward to this weekend.

Thanks to all those who have provided information and their stories; it really has made a difference in us moving forward, or at least trying to.

More mental ramblings and babbling about submitting

Some of this is a repeat of things I have already said...but in excitement for what is to come tonight and trying to wrap my head around my what I need to do mentally to move forward I am putting it all down. In part, for therapy; in part, for recording what I hoping will be a turning point for us; in part, to perhaps another who struggles with the same issues. As with any blog, feel free to read what interests you and ignore my babbling, if it doesn't :)

I am 44 and have known pretty much since I was aware of my sexuality that I like to be dominated sexually. Even as young as 13, I would fantasize about being controlled. I would often spend hours squirreled away in a corner of B.Daltons reading the Story of O and any other BDSM books I could find, both fiction and non fiction.

My first real experimentation into the lifestyle was at 16 with my boyfriend. I do see in retrospect he was not a true dom, he was only trying to please me...in hopes that I would switch and dominate him . My first marriage was strictly vanilla. It amazes me that I never brought up any BDSM in the 2 years we were married, it just wasn't that kind of relationship.

When I met and started dating my husband (just celebrated our 19th wedding anniversary), it came up almost immediately. For both of us, 24/7 does not work...not just practically, but emotionally. In fact he gets over whelmed with too much pressure in 'everyday' life. So, I am actually the dominate one in household, financial, etc matters...but sexually we both are happier when he is in control.

For our relationship what I have struggled with is completely letting go and submitting to his needs, wants, desires as opposed to being a 'do-me sub,' meaning I want him to dominate me, but only in a certain way and on my time frame. Our cycle through our 19 years of marriage has been intense periods of BDSM, which are fantastic but usually followed by periods of vanilla sex (lots of it, as we both have very high libidos...but very vanilla). In the last few years we have been almost strictly vanilla, much to my husbands displeasure...but he has been in a hard place...since we were still having sex 4-5 times a week, he didn't want to complain or force the issue.

Looking back through my journals and blog entries I realize about 4-5 years ago, I finally started actually submitting more and while it's clear from my journal/blog entries, I loved that, I have just realized that it scares the hell out of me, too and that is why I probably started shutting down the lifestyle, rather than face that paradox of what I think I want (to be feel completely owned) and being afraid of it . I am not a pain slut. I enjoy the pain he gives me in as much as that makes me feel controlled and owned, what I have trouble with is the amount that is enough for me to get to that feeling (not very much) as opposed to the amount he needs/wants (more than I have been willing to accept in the past). The other obstacle for me is toys. He is way more into toys than I; pumps, spreaders, ropes, you name it, he loves it. Ironically, the verbal part: name calling, humiliation and assertions of 'ownership' and 'using me' is what can really push me to let go and help me accept the pain and toys...and that doesn't come naturally to him.

Thanks to in large part to a thread on fetlife and some other readings that resonated with me, I finally am actually ready to move forward and give him more control without trying to top from the bottom. After a few days of incredible hot submissive sex, I had a frank conversation with him. He lit up like a Christmas tree. I was able to talk to him about my fears and ask him to help me push through those fears and asked him to give me more verbal direction and humiliation while he was pushing and testing those limits, while promising to work on 'my need' for that.

I am so excited about tonight, it going to be hard to concentrate on anything else today. OK, OK...off to do some reading...I promise, no more posts for today.

Confessions of a 'do me' slut, unsettling rumblings in my brain

G and I have always had a very active and satisfying sex life. We tend to go in spurts: D/s and some s/m for a few months and then vanilla for a few months. I must admit our latest vanilla streak has been quite long time, mostly due to me.

We are, on the whole, a very good fit. He loves me to be sexually submissive, but expects an equal partner outside of the bedroom. In fact, he can actually get out of shape if too much 'everyday' pressure is on him. This works well for me, because I could never do 24/7 or TPE. No judgement on those who do, but for us not an option.

Our latest foray into the lifestyle, which just started a mere 4 days ago, has got my brain a bit in overdrive.

First, I had itch for some rough sex, when that happened Monday I was reminded as good and plentiful as out sex life is in vanilla mode, it is truly spectacular in D/s...which, of course, made me feel a bit guilty at out long stretch without. Make no doubt, as much as I want to justify the absence with we still were having sex 4-5 times a week (both of our libidos could not handle less)...I do know that the quality and satisfaction of that sex is not the same as when we engage in BDSM; during those times we average at least once a day, usually more.

I am, at heart, a research geek. When an idea gets in my brain I read, read, read. Usually a good thing, but there is almost too much info out there now. Last time I was actively blogging there were only a handful of blogs/bloggers I could relate too. In the last few days I found at least 30. In that weird cosmic way, I found a definition of a 'do me sub' and I recognized myself...within of few minutes of that, I read more than a couple of blogs/fetlife posts that had both subs and doms facing the same issues. Adding to that, was me feeling hot and bothered on Tuesday and disappointed with G for not being up to it. Really, the perfect storm and the light bulb of...'who really is suppose to be in control here?' Now all of this is rambling in my brain last night and when G pressed through my objections to anal sex last night was the final piece fell into place...submission is really what I want.

Now if he can keep pushing and I can keep giving up control, I don't know.

As adventurous as I would like to think I am, I know he craves more bondage and more pain than I have been willing to accept in the past. We have never had a safeword, as a stern no/stop from me (as opposed to a moaning, pleading no/stop) has 'worked' for us in the past. I am thinking if I want him to really push me and for me to reach beyond my comfort zone, maybe it is time to pick one.

Now, the time has come for me to end this rambling, as G just came in and gave me instructions to go upstairs in 10 minutes. He has told me he has lots of new things he wants to try. I am interested to see what he has in mind. Honestly, I would love to see if we can take it to the next level organically...or if that is too romanticized and we have to have a frank conversation.

Don't know if many people are reading these days...but would love to hear your thoughts, opinions and suggestions.

Now I am off to get fucked...full report tomorrow, I promise.

*please excuse any typos, no time to edit, as 'duty' calls...

ETA: I wanted to pass along this article. Reading it helped me reconcile my wanting to be more submissive in the bedroom, while still knowing that is the only place I am willing to submit. In the past I have struggled with labels and others' judgment of what being submissive means. I also wanted to give fetlife a shout out. I had never heard of it before. Reading the variation and acceptance and encouragement of embracing submission as it works for you, while striving to let go and fully submit within those parameters has helped me (I am hopeful) tremendously.

Spice is twice as nice

After our nice, but vanilla anniversary weekend, I started reading some D/s books and blogs and getting really horny for some steamy, hard, rough sex. We took it pretty slow on Monday night as it has been a while since we indulged in any kink, but I thought a nice warm up. I was surprised when G came home Tuesday and said, 'let's take a break today'...after gearing myself up all day I was disappointed and frankly a little worried he wasn't into it anymore. He assured me, he would use and abuse me Wednesday. Wednesday came and he left early for a round of golf before work, I barely spoke to him during the day and he seemed so mellow when he came home. Still while the kids were eating dinner, I took a nice hot bath and shaved my pussy clean...he still seemed very quiet, I thought, 'Oh, no. It's my own fault, I have been turning down G for D/s sex for so long, he just isn't up for it, anymore'....but he soon put my fears to rest...once the kids were in bed and fast asleep....

I was half watching TV, half playing online, curled up in my little corner of the loveseat when he strode in and startled me by grabbing my tits and using them as handles to pull me forward. He savagely manhandled my breasts, especially delighting in torturing my nipples, pulling them and stretching them as far as he could. My cunt immediately filled with juices. He grabbed a handful of hair with one hand and released his bulging cock with the other. Once his cock was free, he put his other hand in my hair and forced my head forward and impaled his cock deep down my throat. Out of practice, I gagged..."Come on whore, you can do better than that," he grunted as cupped my chin and slapped my face. "See why training is so important, I am going to get you back in shape, I have let you go far too long, without reminding you that I own your body." I was determined to do a better job and as he put his hands back in my hair, I opened my throat and took him down deep. I licked and sucked with all my might, but still he pulled my hair into him harder and harder. "Sit still bitch while I fuck your mouth." Harder and faster he slammed his member in my mouth until he almost came..."Oh, no slut, you're not getting off that easy" He reached in his pocket and pulled out a new collar and the chain leash. "I got you a present today. A new collar. I got a new collar, because I want to reassert myself as your master. Tonight you are going to submit to my every demand and whim. No whining and no pleading will get you out of giving me everything I want."

He pulled the collar on tight and attached the leash. He yanked my off the loveseat and on to my feet. He pulled hard and practically drug me upstairs. He pulled me to the bed and pushed me on my back and quickly pinned my arms over my head. Clank, went the cuffs around my wrists. He began squeezing my nipples again pulling them tight and taught and dangled the nipple clamps on a chain in front of my face. Twisting each nipple he clamped those hard cold clamps on tight. He pulled on the chain, softly at first, then harder and harder. As I moaned and groaned, he said, "Whose tits are these?" "Your's master" "That's right, remember that". He continued to pull the chain with one hand and reached down between my legs with the other.

"Oh, that's my good whore, you're soaking wet. You are such a slut, you are so ready. You're so ready...are you ready for this..." and with that his slammed 2 fingers deep in my cunt, in and out..."Oh, that's it...don't cum, don't cum" Just as fast as he put his fingers in my pussy, he withdrew them. He reached over and grabbed a crop and put it up to my mouth, "Lick it, lick it slut"..I barely had time to comply when he ordered me, "Turn over, now" I struggled to turn with the cuffs..."Now! Come on bitch, get that ass in the air."

I barely had a chance to get all four when, whack! down came the crop across my ass with a sting. He reached around and put the nipple clamp chain in my mouth. Crack, crack, crack...he continued to assail my ass. "That's it, MY ass is nice and pick now...it is MY ass, isn't it?" Oh, yes Master," I groaned.

He parted my cunt lips and and ran his finger just along the edges , I felt him position his cock at my slit and he grabbed my hips and pulled me back as he pushed forward. Deep in my cunt, he pounded away. Just as I was about to come he stopped, and said, "Not yet, my little hole...I am not done playing with my fuck toy." He pulled out and shoved my head to the mattress, pushing my ass even higher in the air.

He grabbed the lube and slowly spread the goo along my asshole. That tight, most forbidden hole has not seen much action lately, so it tightened up in response. "Relax bitch" I blew out my breath and tried to relax. He slid in a but plug, slow and steady...but insistent. "Take the plug, take it up your ass." When it was in tight he put his cock back in my pussy and fucked me again. "Cum bitch, cum bitch, cum now...while you have a chance" I could hear the laughter in his voice, but I let myself cum.

As soon as I finished, G pulled out and focused his attention on the but plug. I lifted my head and turned to look at him. I pleaded, "I am not ready, it's been too long.." He pushed my head back down and barked, "You're ready when I say you're ready...and that is now and if you're not, too damn bad..that's my ass, you're just my fuck toy. I will use you any way I see fit..." He pushed one hand on my back and used one hand to guide his cock into my tight hole. I was gasping for air and willing myself to relax. "That's it hole, you better relax, because I am taking MY ass one way or another" With that he was in, I could feel his balls against my cunt. I thought, I was going to split in two. My ass was so full. Slowly, he pulled out and pushed back in, loosening me up. "That's my whore...I am going easy on you tonight, but remember I own your body and I will use it!" Bam! He plowed me deep. 2 quick strokes and I could feel his hot cum fill my bowels.

Thank you master, that was awesome. It was that perfect mixture of plain and pleasure...and being taken and used for his pleasure, regardless of what I wanted...and in the end, that is what I want most.

I have to say, I was feeling very lazy this morning and almost didn't sit down to write, instead was just meandering through blogs, looking for some new ones, when I ran across this one. Hot! Hot! Hot! Thanks so much, William, for the great read and inspiring me to blog about last night, so I will always remember it in detail.

Having a ball

After our hot and heavy session Saturday night, G and I were still horny Sunday morning and so after breakfast we sent the kids outside, 'to get some fresh air and run around while it is nice'....lol...and we went upstairs for our own 'exercise', a nice quickie.

G mowed the grass and I did all the 'fun' domestic stuff; laundry, dusting vacuuming, etc. I tried to engage G in some flirtation while doing the chores, but he wouldn't bite :(

With the chores out of the way, G took the boys to the driving range and I used my alone time to catch up on some blogs and watch some porn. Getting yourself all worked up, when in the back of your mind you know your spouse might need a break, is not something I recommend! Needless to say after dinner, G told me..."ya know I am not that starving" (our kid friendly euphemism for horny). I must have looked crushed, because he quickly added, "last night was so hot and then this morning...." "Fine, fine," I grumbled as flopped in front of the boob tube (something I rarely do). I must have needed the sleep, because I feel asleep on the couch before the kids went to bed.

To me the best part of 3 day weekends is you actually get all the chores and errands done and still feel you had time to relax. With everything done, the whole family has a relaxing day; playing, reading and napping. Knowing G has a stressful meeting scheduled tomorrow at work, I gear myself up for no sex tonight...but he surprises me, and asks, "We're having fun tonight, right?" I am feeling really lazy and almost say no...but don't.

After my bath, I slip into a little white nightie, I am actually relieved to see no 'tools' laid out or hung up....I am thinking, yeah, I could go for some vanilla tonight....but as soon as G comes in the room, he begins roughly messaging my breasts. He pinches my nipples and I think, 'then again...' As if he is reading my mind G reaches under the bed and brings out a pair of handcuffs. He puts them on my wrists and puts my hands over my head. He continues his assault on my tits. As I moan and groan, he pulls another toy from under the bed, a ball gag. He tells me to sit up and he puts it on. He tells me to get on all fours. As I turn over, I bite into the ball. I relish the rubber taste and the feeling of the straps around my head. He enters my cunt from behind. As he is fucking me he starts to put in an anal bead. With no lube and warning, this tiny little bead feels huge and I scream into the ball gag. G spanks my ass, and says "oh, poor little girl, can't scream with that thing in you mouth." I moan and scream some more and move my hips to show my displeasure. "Come on, " G growls, "these are tiny little beads, slut. You had my big cock buried here just a few days ago." He continues to pop the beads in as he thrusts in and out of my pussy. Once they are all in, he begins to plow me in earnest and it doesn't take long for me to start to come, G pulls out the beads and I explode....he is right behind me and fills me with his hot cum.

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Saturday Night Live

Wow! I can't believe I am up so early after last night, but such is life.

If you read my post coital gush after last nights session you know the ending, sorry about that, but I was closing all the windows and clearing cookies in case the kids got up before me, and was in such a glow I had to share ;)

G took both boys for hockey in the early afternoon and I used the alone time for a very close shave. As it was a beautiful day I put on a pair of shorts (sans underwear) and a tank. Feeling the occasional breeze and fabric across my bald cunt kept me wet all afternoon.

While doing afternoon chores and cooking dinner G would pay me an occasional visit, to put a finger in my pussy, smack my bottom, fondle my breast of even sneak in a quick suck on his cock when the kids weren't around. It kept the sexual tension and awareness flowing (and kept me sopping wet too).

Once the kids were in bed and fast asleep. I took a bath and smiled as saw G had all 'the tools of the trade' hung on the bed rail again. He had the reverse outfit from last night. Long white stockings and long white gloves laid out. But tonight there was a new present, a rhinestone dog collar.

I put on the outfit and the bright red lipstick he had left for me. When he came upstairs he pulled the blindfold down from the rail and put it on me. He tied my hands together and to the head board. I heard a chain being pulled from the bed rail, G grabbed the rings in my new collar and pulled me up to him for a passionate kiss, when he finished he hooked the metal leash to my dog collar and pushed me back on the bed.

He used the metal leash to torture my tits, rubbing the chain across my nipples and around my boobs. He took the chain and ran in down between my legs and through my cunt and up my backside. He straddled my face and put his cock in my mouth, "suck it hard bitch," he barked as he pulled the leash and the cold chain dug into my hot cunt. He fucked my face for a long time while he teased my pussy and ass with the chain.

He moved the chain and lifted my legs up over his shoulders and slammed a butt plug up my tight rosebud. G put his tip of his cock at my cunt, and began to tease me. "You want it, don't you, you dirty little whore?" I bucked my hips to answer. "Beg me, beg me to fuck you," he taunted as he slipped his hard cock into my dripping hole just a bit. "Please, please fuck me," I moaned. I tried to push myself on to his cock, but he pulled away. "That's it, that's my slut. Your cunt in so smooth and tight." He pulled his cock out of my pussy and started playing with the butt plug, slowly pushing it in and out, stretching that tight little hole. "Oh, I like to play with that ass. That ass is mine, isn't slut?" "Oh, yes, master," I moaned. "You're going to let me fuck that tight ass tonight, aren't you?" "Of course, master"

He flipped me over onto all fours, and spanked my ass. He pulled out the small butt plug and quickly replaced it with a bigger one. Because it was bigger my body kept pushing it out. G used his open hand to spank me and thrust the plug back into my ass. He kept spanking me, driving the plug into my ass, again and again and again until my ass was flaming and butt plug had done it's job and loosened me up. He fingered my dripping cunt and slammed his cock into my pussy, I came instantly. He thrust a couple more times in my cunt and then is one swift movement pulled out the butt plug and slid his cock up my back door. He picked the metal leash and wrapped the end around his hand and pulled the chain tight, pulling my head toward him. He shoved a large dildo into my mouth, "suck that cock, hold it tight in your mouth!"

With one hand grabbing my hip and one hand pulling on the leash, he fucked my ass, hard and deep. Pounding his rock hard cock deeper and deeper into that tight forbidden hole. He let go of the leash and grabbed the other hip. Pulling my even closer to him, impaling me deeper on to his cock than I ever thought possible. My pussy was dripping and muscles contracting as I started to cum again. "That's it, cum, cum you bitch. I can feel your muscles squeezing me...I am going to cum, I am going to fill you ass with my cum...." I could feel his hot seed explode deep inside my ass as he continued to thrust...

ahh, Saturday night, defiantly live.

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I love anal sex

I am sorry if that is TMI, or offends someone who thinks no woman loves anal sex. G and I just had the most incredible session! I want to say ever, but I know I often feel that right after sex, so I will reserve judgement until after the oxitocyn wears off (Natural chemical your body releases as you orgasm) for complete judgement.

He had me tied up, blindfolded and gagged by a huge dildo, while he pounded my ass deep and hard. He pushed that cock deeper in my ass, than I ever thought possible...while telling me to take it and calling me 'his whore' until he shot his hot cum deep into my ass.

Full details after some much needed sleep...but I wanted to capture this feeling while it was 'fresh' in my mind and in my ass.

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Used, Abused and filed with Cum

I take my bath and dress in the simple white, silky panties and sheer black robe. The edges of the robe skim my firm large tits. I know what mood he is in, by the cat of nine tails hanging from the bed rail.

He enters and walks to my side, he seizes on my boobs and immediately begins pulling on my nipples, harder and harder he pulls, and twists and squeezes those sensitive buds. I can't help but wiggle under his firm, controlling, painfully abuse. My cunt fills with juice, soaking my panties with a wetness the permeates the air. He reaches down to my cunt and shoves the cloth underwear deep inside me. "That's it bitch, you're all wet, already ready, aren't you?" I feel his fingers push harder and rougher into my flesh, deep inside my cunt. My wetness grows and continues to spread on to my panties. He pauses just long enough to reach into the bedside drawer and pulls out a pair of nipple clamps with a chain. He tweaks my right nipple, and starts to suck and bite it, engorging it with blood and making it swell. When I think it can't possible get any more sensitive he holds the nipple clamp in front of my face. He makes a show of tightening the spring clamp, making it clear the biting teeth will grip my already sore flesh even more cruelly than the last time we used them. He positions the clamp over my stretched nipple and releases. The clip bites into my tender flesh and I feel my cunt release even more fluid. He repeats the slow torture to my other tit. The weight of the chain connecting the two clamps pulls and distends my tits even more. Every slight movement sends delicious ripples of pain throughout my body. He continues to fondle, lick, squeeze and bite my tits. "Suck me" he orders as he pulls me to his cock, I take him deep in my mouth and relax my throat as he plunges his cock past my tonsils. He fucks my mouth grabbing my hair and impaling himself deeper and deeper into my mouth. "suck it slut, take that cock down your throat" He is so rough I feel myself start to gag. He backs off, but only for a split second for me to regain my composure. He renews his thrusts with the command, "take it whore, suck my cock. You can do it, let me fuck your mouth." On and on I deep throat him, giving myself over to his pleasure. Just when I think he is about to come, he pulls away from my mouth and gives my nipple chain and a yank and plunges his finger into my cunt, right over my panties.


My cunt juices are flowing so freely, it only takes a glance to see the wet puddle drenching my underwear. You know what I want.... I do, but I hesitate enough for him to tell me. "I want you to taste your cunt. Take off your panties. Do it...do what you know I want.." He loves to put my soaked panties in my mouth, tonight I put them in my own mouth, he stokes his cock, "That's it fill you mouth with your panties...put this in there too" he shoves his cock in my mouth, right along side the panties, he starts fucking my mouth again, while pulling on the nipple chain.

He reaches under my belly and flips me, pulling me to all fours. "Stick that ass in the air, cunt. Show me my ass." He grabs the butt plug and in one swift thrust drives it up my ass. I gasp and call out as he fills my cunt with his cock. In and out, one thrusts, two thrusts...that's all my pussy gets, he savagely pulls out the butt plug and positions himself at my tight asshole. He tries to enter, but I am too tight. He grabs the lube and rubs it on his throbbing cock. He pushes my head to the bed, "spread your cheeks" I reach around and open myself to my master..he plunges into my ass, and fucks my ass hard..."That's it whore, I am by passing your cunt tonight...it' s all about me." he reaches around and pulls the chain on the nipple clamps..he continues to pound my ass and torture my tits. It hurts and feels so good, I feel used and abused...I am going to cum and scream it out..."cum, cum slut, I am going to fill you ass..." we cum together and collapse...it was awesome....so dirty and nasty, such a slut...as we lay there he tells me, "ahhh.....and today is only Friday we still have 2 more days alone...just wait, all day tomorrow and most of Sunday you're mine, I am going to continue to use and abuse and fill you as I say fit."

Wow! Even though I am now cleaned up and suppose to be going to sleep...I am dripping wet recounting it for you...and dreaming of what's to cum in just a few short hours.

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Unexpected Slut

So, after our 'hot' Friday...G woke up in pain on Saturday. Someway, somehow he hurt his back. We don't know if it was all the 'thrusting' or he just slept on it wrong, bur he is in serious pain. He stretches, I massage, hot bath...nothing seems to work. It sounds shallow, but as much as I am sorry he is in pain, I can't help in the back of my mind think..."ahhh! He has to get better!".

Saturday he is in too much pain to even think of any 'fun' , Sunday, all day, G tells me he is doing much better, but I see him wince ever time he moves or reaches. Finally, I let him off the hook around 9...."I think we should take the night off, I know your not feeling great and it is Sunday," I tell him. I see the relief in his face, even as he tries to deny it, "No, no I am fine..." I just tilt my head to the side, raise my eyebrows and purse my lips together in a half smile. Silent communication between two people who know each other . This simple move tells him...you're not fooling me, don't be macho, better 1 more night off causing serious injury and pain..."maybe you're right," he confesses.

Monday, I speak to G a few times on the phone and he tells me he is much better...but I reserve judgement until I can see him. The cupboards are bare so after work, I go grocery shopping. G BBQ's some steaks, I make some baked potatoes and fresh peas..yum! G does a little jig to show his back is really better. The boys head to the tent...yes, still. I take my bath, and put on a tiny white bikini and black tube top G has set out.

When G come in, he tells me, "Spread your legs, bitch, I want to see your cunt." Hmmm, I wasn't expecting that...I do as I am told and he begins to finger me right over my panties. He pushes the silky material into my pussy. He knows all my hot spots, so in no time I am moaning and groaning and trying to wiggle myself into a better position. I buck my hips to meet his fingers. "Don't cum yet, don't you cum," he tells me. " I want your panties soaked" he continues to push the material deep into the folds of my cunt. "Now! Cum now, cum all over those panties," He releases me...and I do. He peels the underwear off me and shoves them in my mouth. "Taste your juices?" he asks, as he pushes me farther on the bed, and kneels beside me. He pushes his prick in my mouth, "Suck me!" he orders. I pull his cock into my mouth. Slurping on the head. Swirling my tongue around him. Taking him deeper and deeper into my mouth, feeling him nudge the back of my throat. He grabs my hair and forces me even further onto him. I moan, but am mainly silent, my panties acting as a gag. "that's it you slut. You like to taste your cunt while I fuck your mouth. Don't you? You slut, you fucking whore," he barks at me. I love it when he is so vocal, but it doesn't come naturally for him...so, when it happens, it really turns me on. In one swift movement he snakes his arm behind my back and flips me over and pulls me up on to my hands and knees. He thrusts himself into me. I am just about to cum and think he is too, when once again he surprises me. He pauses only for a second and then rams his finger deep in my ass. I gasp in shock. The sudden movement sends my emotions, and sensors reeling. Without a chance to cum, he starts forcing a butt plug up my ass, working it just enough to prepare my ass. He pushes his cock into my ass, "Take my cock into your ass. I am going to fuck you hard." When I try and wiggle away a bit, he pushes my head into the bed, "Don't move, slut!" I groan... He fucks my ass deep and hard... Despite my surprise and discomfort I find myself cuming..as I cry out, G increases his thrusts and send his cum deep into my ass. What a pleasant unexpected evening.

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Yes, out of order post...does anyone really care, probably not. Too damn hot to sleep, but not too hot to fuck...ever, in IMHO....thus the late night musings of a freshly fucked wench.

After I posted today about our hot session on Friday...I couldn't help call G, I was so wet recounting that hot anal sex we had on Friday night..."I was just thinking about you...about how hard you fucked my ass... hard and deep Friday night." As I drove home in traffic, my mind was more pleasantly occupied...thinking about all the naughty things I wanted G to do to me...and telling him about them via modern technology and my bluetooth headset. I described in quite vivid detail, how I wanted him to spank me, abuse my tits, gag me with his hard cock and force his huge prick up my tight asshole. H seemed up to the task, even eager. But is the back of my mind i was a little worried...we've all been there, haven't we...when our mind and our bodies are racing so sometimes reality has a hard time keeping up. I need not have worried. Tonight was amazing.

I am loathe to admit, feminist that I am...that sometimes putting his needs, wants and desires first really turns me on. Yet today, I find myself, like many times in the past, stopping at the store on the way home...beer for him, wine for me...I need razor blades if I am going to shave my cunt tonight...ahh, look at that clothesline rope, perfect for tying my tits up. Getting home in time to run around like a chicken with my head cut off...making, myself and the house and the kids perfect for HIS arrival. A load of Laundry in, chicken (yeah, we eat a lot of chicken) marinating, garbage and recycling out, downstairs picked up, dusted and vacuumed. Kitchen floor swept and mopped. He comes home and is pleased to find the house cleaned and chicken ready for him to BBQ. he starts the coals, and lifts weights while waiting for them to get ready. he BBQ's and I cook some macaroni and carrots. We all eat. The little boys are pretty wiped after sleeping, yet again, in the tent last night. Tonight, in the house and early to bed we break it to them. Around 8, G walks in to the living room, where I am vegging out..."you don't have a glass of wine?" he asks, amazed, "I need you to open me one," I answer. "what? what did you just snap at me...upstairs, right now," he orders me...I laugh...he looks at me, he points upstairs...thinking he is half joking I follow him upstairs. I am pleasantly surprised when I get upstairs he orders me to lower my shorts and lean over the bed. He reaches in the night stand and pulls out a leather crop. he begins to paddle my ass...lightly and teasingly at first. But as he continues to whip me, he is getting more in to it, as am I. What started out as a lark end up with a thorough thrashing of my ass and tits.

All the boys go to bed and fall fast asleep amazingly early. Around 10:30, very early for us, G orders me upstairs for a bath. I come out to find silky white panties, a black tube top....and my dog collar and chain waiting for me. I dress and attach my dog chain with the lock and attach the chain leash. G comes in and immediately begins to control, abuse and pleasure my body. He pulls my leash tight and has me suck his cock, his hands bury themselves in my hair, forcing my mouth around his prick. Gagging me with his cock...I suck and suck. He tortures my tits with his hand, teeth and the chain. He throws my legs over his shoulders and fucks my pussy, hard and deep..I cum...taking my moans of orgasm as a sign to move on, he flips me over. He has the butt plug ready to go and slams it in my ass. Roughly, savagely he forced that plastic device deep in my rectum. Knowing what he wants, he prepares me,only minimally but he is ready and will not be held back...he replaces the plug with himself... in one motion, deep in my ass. I scream out, and don't let the pain fool you, I love it! Don't get me wrong it hurts, but feels so damn good. I love the degradation. My moans and cries are in constant contradiction, "Ohhh, ohhh... god that hurts...fuck me, fuck my ass...ohh, master, you're too big...I feel like your cock is splitting me..ohh, don't stop, don't stop...harder, harder, fuck my ass harder, owww stop, stop..don't...owww...rape my ass...yes! yes! yes! I cum, he cums, yelling, "feel the cum deep in your ass, my ass, filling my slave's ass with cum..." one last thrust, "feel my hot cum deep in your ass whore?"

Yes, master...yes I do, and boy do I love it. Now, I think I had better try to sleep.

Sorry, I know there are probably a bunch of typos, but I am too tired and satisfied to care...will edit tomorrow.


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